On the cusp
This morning's OB appt found my cervix uncooperative. Still only 1 cm and 50% effaced with baby at a -3 station, or--according to the doctor--she's in Port St. Lucie (a reference to a city a good 40 or so minutes north of here). Good news that. It looks like another long "laboring down" process may be in my cards.
To add to the fun, yesterday's last u/s showed her to be face up ("sunny side up," or occiput posterior)...just like her big sister was. Let's hear it for back labor--yeah!! the very best labor of all :-( Who knows? Perhaps we'll even see a return of the forceps for 2.o's arrival (oh how I hope not).
I check into the hospital tonight at 7:30. I'm nervous yet excited and looking forward to meeting her. I'm viewing it in terms of point A (pregnant) and point C (baby here), happily omitting the point B (L&D) that will bridge the other two.
That's the not-so-productive cervical news from sunny south Florida. I look forward to seeing y'all on the flip side in a few days.
And I won't mention that I spent a good portion of my evening last night crying every time I looked at J and/or thought about the fact that she will no longer be "the only one" and thinking that I hope she knows just how much we love her, that 2.0 is not meant to replace her in any way and wanting her to understand that we can love and make time for both of them just as well as we could when it was just her.
Soon, we 3 will be 4.
Terror. Love. Excitement. Love. Nervous. Love. Joy. Hope...and yes, love.