326

As you can see from the above number, I am able to continue breathing for the rest of the day. Beta #2 has more than doubled and I am, for the time being, somewhat relieved. I'll probably coast through today with that knowledge comfortable in my head and then my stress levels will amp up starting again tonight, building up to beta #3 Monday morning at 8 a.m.

I really don't know what to say other than I am shocked by this turn of events. It hasn't really sunk in and I'm also not really letting it sink in. Questions I answer from A about this pregnancy are started with "If we have a baby..." not "When...." I'm still in self-preservation mode and intend on staying there for a good long time.

One thing that I do know what to say is--again--thank you. I don't know how I could make it through each day (past, current, and future) without such thoughtful and wonderful responses from each of you. You are my touchstone, and I'm grateful for the day I came upon this group of strong women via Getupgrrl. So thank you again, friends. I'm glad we have one another to lean on in good and bad times. You get it...you really do, and for that I'm so grateful.